Alone

It's odd when you're alone after you've not been used to it for a while. Initially it feels odd, I walk around the house bumping on the furniture, not knowing what to do. Surfing on the net endlessly, as if I was not allowed before, like a child that eats a lot of sweets when mummy is not around. I don't talk on the phone, I sit and think, I do my nails, I make coffees for myself. It's funny because I'm an only child and I thought I had the capacity to cherish my loneliness forever. When I was a kid, I was always going around with a little bag with some toys, so that I felt safe that if I found myself alone at some point, I would have something to do. When I grew up a bit I would always go around somewhere with a book, even if I accompanied my parents to a place I knew would be other people, I always took my book with me 'because you never know'.

Now, I'm never alone. And I am losing my touch as a loner. As I said, I don't know what to do with myself.



Kate Moss dances like a stripper for the homonymous White Stripes video. I think I shall refrain from such carry ons and just sit down and write my paper. Much as I am bored and akin to procrastination.