Time flies like an arrow*

Looking at my itunes library, I am amazed that my most recent playlist is called ‘2008 forgotten’. It’s almost surreal, not only it is two years old, it also contains tracks that I have forgotten. There was a time where all I could think of was playlists, I was making them all day, I was choosing them carefully and I was constantly dedicating them to people. Now, I make none. When I want to listen to music, I hastily search for stuff that I listen to without any care. But what to do, time flies and times change.

I never wanted to be busy; I thought I would always be free. That’s why I did a PhD, that’s why I became an academic. I always wanted not to conform to social norms, not to go to work 9 to 5. I always wanted to listen to cool music and read literature. And now? Now, I have no time. Not because I actually don’t have time, but just because I do so many things (badly and hastily) at the same time, that I actually don’t have any real time. I jump from one thing to the next without finishing anything, without really caring, just running.

Things need to change. I don’t want to be this person anymore. And I am sure I don’t have to be this person, I am sure I can do something else.

I think I need to go back to playlists and literature.
And perhaps the summer is the ideal time for all this.

Καλό καλοκαίρι…

(*fruit flies like a banana)