K BHTA the Great, Papaioannou the Great

Greek art lives!
In anticipation of MHDEIA2

Go left!

Pet shop boys ironically urged audiences to do west in their 1993 cover of the village people. I remember arguing with my boyfriend then on whether the song was ironic or not. I didn't agree too much with that boyfriend anyway. But I digress.

Lat night I went into a little shop to buy some beers. Next to me was a poor woman wanting to buy a sprite. She gave the man in the till a pound. He said it cost 2.50. She thought there was an offer. He went and brought her what was on offer instead: a 7up. As she was waiting there in shame, holding up the queue, I thought of going to give her 2 pounds. Then I thought that would be insulting and I didn't do it.

I was sad thinking about this woman. These days, we are all so used to social inequality that it seems trivial to us, it seems almost normal. I am not sure on how this van be changed. I go through phases of caring and not caring. I go through phases where seeing people sleeping in the cold roads, in the rain seems fine to me. And then something happens and I stop and think.

It is really not normal, this inequality. No matter how self-absorbed we are, no matter how engrossed we all are in our own problems, it is important to remember every once and a while, that it is not fucking normal. It is shit. I don't know what we can do, I don't know if charity or ethical living or eco shit work in any way. I just think it's important to remember that it is not normal.

Reinvention

Madonna is the queen of reinvention, or so people say. That's why she is so successful.

Sometimes she is a dirty 'virgin' with a 'boy toy' belt.
Then she becomes a live pin up in Dick Tracy.
Then she is an unstoppable nymphomaniac, circa 'satisfy my love' and the Steve Meisel book.
Then a siren/japanese geisha.
Then a cowgirl.
Then a disco queen.
Then a rapper.
And so on and so forth.

Lady Gaga follows big 'M' footsteps, having reinvented her style (copying Madonna relentlessly in the process) more times than one can count with one and only album (The Fame and the Fame monster are one album. Really.)

Every year around my birthday, I think about reinvention. Is reinvention the mother of rejuvenation, in other words do people keep themselves young when they reinvent their style?

I don't know.

I guess I should reinvent myself but I am too bored.
My self works fine for me, for the time being, I guess.

Until one year I wake up and feel this deep need to renew myself and become some sort of aerobic queen or something else equally preposterous.
Till then, let's have cocktails and celebrate our old and boring selves!!

Enjoy the silence

Sitting in the empty house, listening to the rain on the windows.
Doing nothing.
At least nothing that other people would consider important.
I'm calling the bank, the doctor and the tax people to change my address.
I am trying to get a new car insurance.
I am dyeing my hair darker.
I am enjoying the silence in the house, the slowness.
No more lost months in the calendar. September went to November almost directly it seems, I never managed to see the October picture.

But fastness will be no more.
Slowness, silence and calm is the way to go.
I am sure I will not follow my own advice, but if anyone wants to hold me accountable, here is the proof.

The feast of the goat

Tricky was right?

Life doesn't move me - just like a movie
It doesn't move me
Life doesn't move me (Tricky, Bury the evidence)

Sometimes i feel like Tricky: my life goes by and I don't feel it. Good things happen, people come and spend time with me, I talk to friends but i am not 100% there. i live life, i perceive life in a superficial manner: I hear my friends problems and i feel them (sort of), i give advice, i am relatively connected, but not with all my heart, half my mind resides elsewhere. Half my mind travels to stuff i need to do for tomorrow, work that needs done, what i'll cook for dinner etc...

I never thought I lacked empathy, I always thought that I can leave my things aside and just listen to my friends. But this is not even about empathy, this half-hearted involvement with life does not only happen when i listen to people's problems. It happens also with nice things, i am hanging out with a friend and I am not all there. Half my mind is elsewhere.

But where, you will ask, where is a better place to be than in a pub having a drink with people you love/like and make you feel well? I guess in my head, being in work-mode seems to be a better place. But this cannot be true. It's not that I prefer this - i just cannot help it. But this is what I want to, what I have to change. Work and stress and stupid stuff is not something that can dictate my life to such an extent. When I was young(er) I thought that people chose to be stressed. Now that i find myself not being able to help it, I think it is even more important to at least try to.

My life is more important than this.
The love I have for people is more profound than this.

Life needs to move me - not like a movie.
Life needs to move me.
Not like movie.

Music saves

When I am anxious I put on a song loudly and I dance.
And then I feel better.